SHAWNI-SPEAKS...about...The BET Awards...

Ok...so...I guess the only place to begin...is the beginning.

Although Kanye stood on top of a man-made mountain in front of virtual landscapes for the entire set...HE KILLED IT! I missed him. Looks like he's back...and possibly better than before.

Next up! Young Money. Ok. So I definitely knew Nicki and Drake were gonna get awards. What I'm not understanding is why the entire whack a$$ Young Money Cru felt the need to bring their crusty a$$es on stage??? Really. You lames just had to get some camera time, huh? I'm just glad Drake didn't have everybody and their grandfathers on stage during his performance. TY Drizzy!

Now...why are folks hatin' so hard on Nicki. Seems like I'm the only one that likes the broad. So what she had on a long a$$ dress that looked like she was ready to walk down the isle in. So what if her wig was redish-orange like strawberry-pumpkin kool-aid. So what if she was lip sync-ing when she performed with Diddy Dirty Money...hold up...wait...wait...NO...that was wrong. So so wrong. Why in the hell was Diddy's mic...the only one on. Fa Real. Is he that egotistical...he had to highlight himself and make everyone look like dickheads? Guess so.

Moving on. CHRIS! Chris, Chris, Chris, Chris, Chris. Publicity stunt or not. That was the best performance of the night. I was choked up like $h*t. Seriously, tears were flowing. I mean...how could you not feel that. Number 1...it was THE MICHAEL JACKSON TRIBUTE. Number 2...it was the hottest MJ tribute I've seen thus far since MJ's death last year. Number 3...the light lined out suit were sick. Number 4...the song that Chris was unable to finish was "Man In The Mirror". If you hadn't forgiven Chris before...YOU DID AT THAT MOMENT. And even if you didn't...at that moment...he forgave himself. You had to feel and respect that. I did!!!

Next up. Debarge. Ok...way to come back. He sounds and looks exactly the same. Good Music. On the other hand...did he really have to have two sets???

Alright...before I talk about the Prince Tribute...I have to talk about the last performance of the night. I'm watching it as I type and I'm highly disappointed about the Nicky part. ONCE AGAIN...her a$$ was lip-sync-ing. WTF. REALLY...WTFF???? Now I'm irratated...now I'm gonna have to defend her a$$ on facebook. What can I say? If it only happened once, I could come up with something. BUT TWICE. Now...three times!!! Damn, folk! My people gon' be talkin' mad $h*t. I can just see it now..."Yo' girl, Nicki gon' be workin' the pole next year"..."Yo' whack a$$ homie wit the many voices sucked a$$ tonight"..."Yo...that fake booty b*tch is a long nosed lame a$$ fake rapper"!!! I don't care...Imma ride for her any way. She's still the baddest in the game...right now!

Ok...now for the my dude PRINCE. I really wish we seen more songs. I loved Janelle's set. The 2nd chick (who I can't remember at this point in time) was awesome...but what was she playing? A Vio-Chello??? Whatever it was...it looked and sounded A-MA-ZING! Alisha's part...WELL...all I remember is seeing Prince's face when she got her pregnant a$$ on that piano. DID YOU SEE IT??? He was like..."OMG...I'm gonna laugh my f*ckin' a$$ off if she falls". He even looked around to see if anyone else was thinkin' the same thing. HILARIOUS!!!

I truly enjoyed myself. Even the smoke out on Diddy. Too funny.

Well...it's time to hit FB...Shawni-Has-Spoken!!!

I love your sushi roll...hotter than wasabi. Seriously, I'm a SUSHI FREAK. This week alone I have had sushi four times. Apparently, that's insane. Folks...especially black folks, tend to turn their noses up when I even begin to talk about it. LAMES!!! Try something new. It's great! Heard it's ALSO an afrodisiac...that explains a lot. I think I'll have another round please...Domo!

My Favorite I$H Right Now!!

I'm in love with this man. Did you see that tongue? Look @ his gorgeous smile! Drake is by far the smoothest, sexiest, most succulent lyricist in the game. Makes me wanna say "Where have you been, boi"? Hip Hop needed Drake like America needed Barrack. It's like a breath of fresh air. Thank you. ;)

Really Am I...?

So, I just broke up with my manfriend today. I can't really explain why...quite frankly, I really don't know myself. I just woke up one morning and was sick of seeing his face. Kinda like the Foo Fighters song..."I woke up getting tired of you..." (yeah, I'm black...and I listen to the Foo Fighters...WHAT?...They're the shit). Seriously though. Is that normal?

This is not the first time this has happened, either. I oftentimes get bored when the relationship seems "empty". Everything becomes routine...saying "I love you" gets lamer and lamer because the butterflies are no longer fluttering around in my stomach...the conversation is whack and silent times in the car are greatly appreciated...and every time he asks me for a kiss I want to karate kid kick his ass. Am I the only one that feels that way? Am I THAT Weird?

I really expected this relationship to be different. I like mature men but this 39 year old (12 years my senior) really disappointed me...even more childish than the 19 year old I dated. I think I need a happy median...I need a ripe younger dude. Gotta be down to earth (like myself), speaks his mind (regardless of what I think), tells the truth (no matter the consequence), has a charming but goofy when necessary personality (we have to be able to chuckle it up), and handles his B.I. (working/grindin' and in the bedroom). IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?

I just want one. There is only one that I think could fit the bill...but he's a famous "jack of all trades" heartthrob (ADG) that doesn't even know me. There has got to be more out there, right?

I'm convinced that that special one, My Forever Dude, is around one of these corners...and one of these days, his ass will bump into me. Until then, I'm not afraid to let go of those who were only meant to be in my life for a season...even if they try to remain permanently for a lifetime. This probably doesn't make sense to most...and that's cool...call me weird. I'll be that. I'll take weird and happy over normal and miserable any day.